I want to look sexy (:

didnt went school today...
really very tired mentally and physically tired
woke up around 3 plus in the afternoon
can sleep very long right,i can sleep longer wan lo is i feel hungry then wake up haha
yesterday night went to my grandma house to celebrate my grandma's birthday,
ya had alot food there..
haha 1 month plus will be my 18th birthday already..
cant wait to book my basic theory , then can finally drive out
going to go out soon ,meeting the army boy later then off to pub,
ya gonna have a happy night no matter wad

(ya alot things had happen, i also dun wan to to be in this way,
i know i cant decide wad i wan,and being hot and cold
i know i had hurt you alot ,but i really didnt mean it ,
i m always who i m , i dont change in anywhere,
perhaps u really should not have forgiven me in the first place,
the feeling is really different from the past this time,
well i m really sorry to cause u all the hurts that u felt,
i wont cause you hurts anymore and
i wish you all the best in your life ahead)

I don't care what you think,
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

the sisters that never fails to nag at me(haha)

yo went to school today like haha finally lo,
ya went relative house past few days for chinese new year,
and almost every night since last friday we had been drinking,
thinking about it ,really had cost me alot money lo..
martell martell and open tower of beer,
now i m not so easy drunk okay haha,
school is boring lo everytime david teach got so much things to say wont finish wan lo..
and i got problem waking up on time not that i dun wanna go school lo,,
yeah i think i gotta train back really hard already been losing touch wit my training
gonna train back my iron body haha
I LOVE PAIN!!!!
HAHAHAHA

ya ya yesterday went to disco to drink,
ji hwee finally got book out and can come out play
yesterday i told him not to drive because he everytime find reason saying driving cannot drink too much, but hahaha yesterday he never drive so we give him knock out..
haha ji hwee still funny lo...mistaken police car as cab wanna open the door
after dunno few cup we know he already gone le start to dance and dance like crazy already
haha see la talk big la keep saying not scare wont drunk...
lol but i mus admit i also was quite drunk too,they told me that i wanted to beat ppl and police was talking to me but i didnt know..
the stupid bouncer la dunno gave me drink wan submarine and ask me blow the martell,
after awhile i think i already gone lo so giddy la..
then wanted to stay hotel but all full lo so stupid la..
but lucky almost all the time im drunk i wont puke and afterwhile i will be awake..
this time round i manage to walk home lo haha..
yeah yeah and we had a happy night there and only we know wad is it...haha

(''everytime play never think of ppl'')

(the army boy cum monk)

yo yo never go school today..

i think i will die lo like this term of school i missed alot

yeah scare scare already later got ban from exam again haha

yeah yeah nothing much already.

maybe going drink tonight ,

yeah long time never drunk already haha

(the fish who swim all the time)

yo...finish buying my new year shirts yeah
went tanning at fabulous tan that day,
haha quite cool serve by someone is who is rather quite gay ,
funny lo the way he teach us how to use the machine the pose he gave us haha,
yeah the tanning really will works..14 min of inside the machine is equal then tanning outside for 4 hour.
ya gonna sign up for package then going to to going tanning more often..
ya went lips jus now ,only had a jug ,
haha i m not drunk lo , i did improve,
yeah yeah going to school now, so tired shall sleep while in the train,
and friday or sat going to drink wit ji hwee the army boy..

ya ..yesterday after school went to clementi to do our napfa tester course,
and if i can pass i could test ppl napfa test,
yeah the qns was quite easy and some are jus common sense,
yeah jus hope i can pass cause i totally never study for it.
ya been missing school quite often ya due to my late night,
yeah mus control my night's life abit already too tiring,
had not been attending training this past 1 week ,
miss training so this sunday is a mus to go for myself,

freaking sony phone so hard to use,i prefer nokia better..
also nth much ya, life had been rather okay for me,
school timing are also not bad this tern..
6 more month before attachment
ya got to work hard for the time being now..

(the jiu who guy )haha (I WANT THE LETTER)

haha we got too much time ,so we decided to try so lame stuff at west mall

ya last week went hilltop to drink, to celebrate ji hwee last day before going army,
ya didnt open my fav 'martell' haha scare scare ar,
haha that day i was not drunk i was jus feeling giddy haha ,
i had become better drinker lol,
yeah yesterday sunday morning went gangsa wit qi bin, wei liang and my 'yang brother'
haha didnt went there to play lo jus went there to watch how ppl jump,
really alot of cool bike down there and pro bikers jumping there ,
and i targetted one transistion bike which wei liang and yang brother wanted to buy,
so nice lo the frame $2200 like that not bad sia,
if i got that bike i would jump like nothing haha,
haha ''dyna'' is an offroad thing and can do wadever style lol!!
and last thing sat drank something which is my first time in my life ,
not beer not martell but ''diesel'' ,
because we got no money to pump oil have to steal oil,
then got to ''zoot you'' suck oil from another car then i dunno,
suck too much one mouthfull of oil went in too my mouth la,
darm sucks the taste haha wen rong also kana haha..

haha today was my first day in school ,
lol actually yesterday was the first but i was not really feeling didnt went,
ya and today in school didnt do much kept walking round and round slack haha,
and alot sharing session with the "wild" people,
hot topic was super hot la haha...,
yeah tmr gonna wake up super early i thin 5 plus ,
cause very stupid need to be in clementie at 7..
was ask to watch movie with lech ,jerome,lexon ,jasmine but really was too tired wanted to rest,
so sorry haha to left off ya...
yaya im gonna be a happy person from now on ,
and be positive for wadever things i do from now...

hmm ya alot of things happen to me this few days.
ji hwee thanks for really caring for me and looking for me,
well i do know who really treat me good and who is not,
an the one that betray me and being a hypocrite trying to say something that i had not done, i know too,
i jus dun wan to confront you,
but i will forgive you,
because i belif in things call karma,it will get back wad u own me one day, it jus had yet to come my friend, oh are u really me friend?ask urself wad do gain by doing all those things to me,
well no point me still going to explain since u trust wad the person had to say.
ya last sat night went k box sing for the whole night with joanne and lee zhen till 6 in the morning then off to dojang to sleep...
that very sunday was our last day training at outram ,
it was quite a sudden changes...haiz will miss the outram dojang and feel sad that we are moving,
ya we have move to a bigger place around 5x the size of our own gym.
right now im training at budo acadamy,yeah i shall focus on training and stop fooling around.
i guess in this world is really hard to find someone that really can be trusted..
well this post i wanted to post 2 days ago but was too busy...

great im one big loser...
i realize that im not good in everything i do..
simles ,laughing and looking happy maybe that's wad im good in.
why people out there have to belif wad i had not say,
im so tired.wadever things that i want to archeive had not been done so,
people always tell me to be strong all those are words,
after all those words of motivation i still end up going to face the world alone,
all this while i been training so hard willing to do wadever it takes to be strong and be able to fight well,
but i come to think of,wad for?
i wont be able to use it outside ,nobody appreciate it.
everytime i will tell myself learning all these is like bring an umbrella out when there is no rain.
but i guess in real life it wont rain,i can never use my being kept umbrella in good way.
ya my life is dead now... totally dead!
train hard fight easy?that is jus lies i lie i will tell to myself..
nobody i to blame i brought all this to myself
im not a good person im a 'jerk'

'joanne im sorry everytime i will only find u when i down
this time like me walk it alone yeah only by it i can fully recover'..