I want to look sexy (:

ya need start off school project ,haven even really start doing it lo,
i have been less motivated nowadays now, not been attending training for quite 1 month already,
ya i guess my team mates mus have wonder wad happen to me, or why am i backing out ,
i m really burnout i really need a good time rest, not that i m quiting as i lost interest in it,
i will never give up on martial art as it is something i do which i will feel really me when i doing it,
it is also something which keep me motivated in life, i can take all those torturing hard blow from training has already proven that im one class above average person, by saying this i m not trying to say how good or trying to show off but that's my kind of personal feeling of it.
i was reading on the net and i see this phrase and somehow i got special feeling ,my body cell are wanting to get ready for training again "Train both Internal and External.
External training includes the hands, the eyes, the body and stances.
Internal training includes the heart, the spirit, the mind, breathing and strength" it makes me rem how hard i use to train and i were to give up now it will be all washing down the drain effort..
i have my on way of martial art (武德) use it only for my love one and when my life are endanger unless it shall not be use as violent to subdue people..
i want to go back training but i dun really know how should i start to tell me shi fu and shi jie,
i afraid they have already given up on me.
i m really having mixed emotional now, i hate to have to console myself as it appear to be lying to myself ,telling myself to look on the bright side those are jus motivating words it not so easy as said and really to do it..

i m learning to stand up myself whenever i falls..

past is the history,
future is mystery,
now is the gift,
that why it is call the present,

learning to live in the present and being a better person.!!

down wit flu the past few days,
ya got 2 days of mc haha, and today was myself declare holiday haha,
fcuk my skin keep peeling off ...then have to go tone back the colour..
today my skin seems rather better patch of peeling seems to recover already,
ya sun going to tan agian yeah my dark dark skin i m coming haha,
i crazy over getting tan now...
i m going to go back training soon,
my body is not as tough as before i think...
to me to fight well the first thing is to be able to love pain,
so my friend lets all love pain!!!!!!!

(i m a psycho)dun play wit me , i love pain.

urban ninja?

today overslept and eventually was late for school,
woke up near 10 and school actually starts at 9 lol,
rush myself there but found out there was not much of lesson,
free roam at the gym slacking haha,
ya my classmate was all shock by my stanning tan skin haha,
they say i was too black and my teeth seems to be obvious white haha..
lol, then rush down to clementi to be the napfa tester,
ya nothing much easy job slack ,
and the weather was sucky today is hot and cold make it very humid,
and eventually i was down wit runny nose and had to walk though the rain while i was going home,
ya school got alot project need to finish stress is coming,
but no stress is gonna make a fuss out of me, i can handle it...

(trying to compare my colour wit his)

(cyber-shot)mode?

new tone of colour for me!!!

haha yeah today half day off from school self declare,

then went tanning again , i guess i should look darker now,

i think i wanna sign up for fabulous tan already,too much of tanning outdoor is no good for the skin..

ya nothing much already friday most prob going sentosa again..anybody?

anyway below are pic taken during swimming meets..wao like finally got hold of this pic after so long

i m not a full-time swimmer btw lol..

we are the crazy one

as if i m flying haha

yo hi all is been quite awhile since i last blog, had been rather busy recently not been staying at home quite often too. i got alot of feeling to write out but dont know where should i start it. there are so many things i wanted to let out but i cant find anyone to do so, it so hard to keep everything inside me, the fire is within me, i m starting to cannot control myself my tolerance level is not the past me anymore i get angry easier now...i think i should really have a good chat wit myself and do some reflection.. i m sick and tired of ppl lying ,being used and betraying me jus fuck off my sight!!thinking of it really makes me boil!! is okay wad goes around comes around one day u will get how i felt now.. i should not let this kind of childish act affect myself, yeah last week ji hwee book out and we went santosa tgt for the first time ,lol very funny wit his stupid joke and action , although we all are very tired but he still managed to keep us from sleeping wit his crazy action haha..

yaya and i m into tanning haha been tanning for the past few day, i wanna go back fabulous tan to so i can look darker faster haha,

this coming sat valatine's day will be another year that i gonna spend wit myself again,i had never tried spending it wit my someone special before.. jus by seeing couples, i felt lonely..hiaz how i wish someone will appear into my life and be that special one for me... I WANNA BUY a soft toy for myself this sat since i had nobody to give to...sad sad sad ....

the army boy!!