great im one big loser...
i realize that im not good in everything i do..
simles ,laughing and looking happy maybe that's wad im good in.
why people out there have to belif wad i had not say,
im so tired.wadever things that i want to archeive had not been done so,
people always tell me to be strong all those are words,
after all those words of motivation i still end up going to face the world alone,
all this while i been training so hard willing to do wadever it takes to be strong and be able to fight well,
but i come to think of,wad for?
i wont be able to use it outside ,nobody appreciate it.
everytime i will tell myself learning all these is like bring an umbrella out when there is no rain.
but i guess in real life it wont rain,i can never use my being kept umbrella in good way.
ya my life is dead now... totally dead!
train hard fight easy?that is jus lies i lie i will tell to myself..
nobody i to blame i brought all this to myself
im not a good person im a 'jerk'
'joanne im sorry everytime i will only find u when i down
this time like me walk it alone yeah only by it i can fully recover'..